I’m just doubting whether or not I can actually do it…driving all those miles by myself.

Has anyone ever gone on such a long trip by yourself with your little one?

So if someone has power if attorney over Boo’s Dad, could I get child support from that person?! Lol, purely hypothetical of course.

Ah but it’s fun being a broke-ass single mom. Well I’m not completely broke, just broke enough that I can’t travel. And all I ever think about is travelling.

Seriously fuck anyone who invites a single mom out on a Friday night then jams out on them. You know, I got a babysitter, I put on my brand new outfit, I wore my new boots for the first time, I did my makeup like I meant it, I straightened my goddamn hair and then you just don’t bother calling or texting me back until 11:00 at night and you’re already out.

Seriously didn’t even need this after the ugly day I had at work. I know I know it’s a little thing, but damn if it doesn’t make me feel like I don’t matter at all.

So I kicked her off the electronic entertainment for three days.

Does this sound fair to you, or does it sound like I’m a hardass?

lostmymojo:

That a father can play-fight with his son, and ladies nearby will smile, shake their head and playfully roll their eyes, like “oh silly boys.”

But if I play fight with my daughter, other women will literally just stand there and stare at me like I’m a freak of nature.

I get it all the time! It’s so…___________. (Please fill in that blank.)

We’re having a fun time! How bout you keep your judgy eyes to yourself, mmmk?

Still happens. We both take martial arts. We both watch every action movie. Let us fight!! haha

and she straight out asked if she would be willing to give legal sole custody of Boo to me. She said it would be no problem. (She has power of attorney over him.) Whew. I knew she probably would have seeing as how he hasn’t even tried to come over in 5 years, (and now he can’t) but you never know. And you know, I just don’t even want to bother talking to anyone from that family, but I guess I have to. Ugh.

Anyway. What I want is sole parental rights, not just sole custody. I don’t ever want to have to ask anyone’s permission to take her on a trip.

We’re going around the world; it’s just a matter of time.

She got sent to the principal’s office and had to stay in for recess and they called me at work and everything.

What she did was (keep in mind, she’s only in grade 1) draw a picture of her holding her friend upside down and drew a big jagged line through her. And then the next day, she apparently told a kid in her class she was going to “kill him.” 

Holy crap, Boo. That is so not her to speak like that. She’s always been a total pacifist; I’ve literally seen her get punched by a kid and Boo didn’t do anything but look sad and walk away.

I asked why she drew the picture - she said because her friend told her she was going to fight her and she was upset about it. So instead of telling the teacher, or anything else, she drew a picture to deal with her feelings about the situation. The next day her other friend says he’s going to kill her, and she repeats the same thing to him, and Boo get’s in trouble for that. (And duh, they’re little kids, they don’t really mean it.)

So to sum the situation up:

• Boo’s friend upsets her, she draws a picture about it.
• Boo gets in trouble for drawing picture.
• Boo’s other friend upsets her, she deals with it by uttering threats.
• Boo gets in bigger trouble for it.

The whole situation just bugged and bugged me and I couldn’t figure out why. But it dawned on me that Boo basically got in trouble for how she dealt with the stress of her classmates being mean to her. She got in trouble for drawing a picture. So she didn’t draw a picture the next time she was upset, instead she graduated to mimicking the same idiotic words of another and got in even bigger trouble for it. 

I’m thinking that it’s just fine if she takes a step back and continues to deal with frustrations by drawing them out. It’s a good thing that she has that outlet. The bad thing is her teacher and principal aren’t ever going to like what she draws out of frustration.

But you know what? They don’t have to. Boo can keep on drawing and drawing until the end of her days if it keeps her happy and functioning. I’ve got scars on my arms that will never go away from how I used to deal with my frustrations, and I’ll be damned if I’m going to let her get to that.

So on the weekend I bought her a big sketch book and some new pencils and told her to draw whatever she wants in it and that she doesn’t have to show anybody if she doesn’t want to. She gave me the biggest hug and said, “thank you Mom, you’re the best!” and basically made my entire week.

That was me yesterday :(

And it really helped when my Mom came by to give me shit for sleeping…on my day off, when I happen to be in the clutches of the migraine of death, with the added bonus of having an exhausting, snotty, coughy, cold. Thanks for that.

That a father can play-fight with his son, and ladies nearby will smile, shake their head and playfully roll their eyes, like “oh silly boys.”

But if I play fight with my daughter, other women will literally just stand there and stare at me like I’m a freak of nature.

I get it all the time! It’s so…___________. (Please fill in that blank.)

We’re having a fun time! How bout you keep your judgy eyes to yourself, mmmk?

Really, sincerely, the only bad thing about being a single Mom is not having anyone to watch Boo grow up with; not having that other witness. I’m not going to have anyone to talk about or remember her life’s journey with when she’s all grown up and moved out. She’s already so incredible and she’s only been around for just over 5 years! It makes me blue sometimes.

Well I forgot about Boo’s soccer roundup tonight, well, last night. They were all going for ice cream and getting medals and stuff. I seriously cried just now because I felt so bad about missing it; I mean, I just realized that I forgot about it. I had to do all this stuff in the late afternoon (for other people who can do it themselves, but like to pawn off their own chores on other people) that I just plain blanked on it.

It’s not bad enough at this moment in my life that I feel like a complete and utter failure in my personal and professional life, but add to that the feeling that I failed as a mother and it just makes me want to lie in bed and not get up for a week.