Very relevant to all the discussion of huseism and cries of YOU WHITE HATER HOW CAN TANNING BE RACIST?!?
Wow. Pictures on tumblr don’t normally hit me like how this one has. I don’t tan myself (it’s actually really hard for me to), but I feel the pressure to constantly to somehow ~validate~ my ethnicity to other people as a light-skin/pale person. I’ve seen relatives of mine (who according to blood quantum are more Native than me) who do this also.
I’ve never tanned on purpose in my life. Actually, I stayed out of the sun for a good 12 years after a really bad sunburn at a track meet left me with wrinkles under my eyes (yep, instant wrinkles - they’re small, but still). I only get tanned at all now because I play outside with Boo in the summertime.
But that doesn’t mean I haven’t thought about it. I did, all the time. Sometimes I still do. My biggest wish when I was a kid was to be brown! Seriously. And to have
normal brown eyes.
I grew up the palest person in my whole family. I mean, all of my cousins, aunts, uncles, even my brother is brown. Not me. Sometimes I got teased about being a whitegirl and people would always talk about my “coloured” eyes. Not to mention the fact that I was a city kid. Yeah, I lived on the rez when I was a baby, but that didn’t count, right. So growing up I always sort of felt separate from my family…and which is why I’m such a raging wierdo today! (Jk on the last part there.) (At least I have no wrinkles thanks to being a vampire for a decade!)
So that’s my boo-freakity-hoo story of the week. Carry on!
Really, sincerely, the only bad thing about being a single Mom is not having anyone to watch Boo grow up with; not having that other witness. I’m not going to have anyone to talk about or remember her life’s journey with when she’s all grown up and moved out. She’s already so incredible and she’s only been around for just over 5 years! It makes me blue sometimes.
Mostly just someone to share my life with (besides a little Boo!).